May 2001 Entries

May 15, 2001

I’ve changed the layout for the page now. I think I like this one more

than the last. Its the same person., Natalia Oreiro, its her eyes...I like

it. I was planning on using one from http://www.princessmelissa.com

but she hasnt gotten back to me so I can make it on time for the new

one, because I wanted to make a new one, I am still doing some updates!

Its cool. The web page is working out alright except the updating kind of sucks because

fortunecity.com would let me upload my page for a week or so.

It was becoming to get annoying.Moving on to weirder things in my life...

we have had alot of Stanford 9 testing. Its kind of weird, I dont like it, but I do like it.

Its odd. I mean I just think its pointless to test someone by what they have learned

the year. I dont think they gave us enough time for the social science stuff. The math

was WEIRD! I understood some, but I didnt remember the formula for it. Anyways,

my “crush” has been getting closer to me. I dont want to mention anything

because I dont know. I think im obcessing and im just plain dumb. I hate it. I hate him!

No I dont...the thing is that I cant say I love him, because I dont. I like him alot.

I dont know up to what point, but I do like him more than any guys I’ve ever liked so far.

Wincent hurt his knuckle/finger at a volleyball game. I always massage it.

I think hes getting annoyed by it now! Plus im mad at him..

I e-mailed him this past month and he hasnt responded. That jerk! No im just playing.

I love messing with his hair. Its cool because when he doesnt put gel in his hair

I get to mess around with it. YAY. Thats sad, thats all the highlight

of my 5th period class. Its weird.I signed up for ebay this one time with my friends e-mail.

I keep forgetting and I sign in with that account instead of my account. Its dumb. REMEMBER!

I keep telling myself that. But I cant seem to do so.Pretty soon Iam going to have

to go to my Psychology class. Iam thinking of ditching it. But I dont want to, but I do.

I feel like not going but, I dont know. I have to do some other junk, and we are going

o get our study guides soon. Anyways, its weird, my mom doesnt want me online.

I’m grounded or something stupid like that.

Anyways, Im out of here. That wraps up another life with me...*waves*

Noelia

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May 13, 2001 637pm

I dont know who Iam anymore. I dont know what wrong with me but everyday I feel less at peace with myself. I have various mood swings. One second I'll be all happy and the next all depressed and not knowing what to do with myself. I've been getting bored easily and tired easily. A lot of things dont seem to amuse me and Im getting alot of envy/jelousy alot. I hate it. Ita annoying. I dont know if Im getting self concious lately, but Ive been putting things aside, like this site and my other site. I dont know why. I guess I'm going through alot of emocional changes, I dont know. I'm getting kind of annoyed that no one wants to host me...well, not annoyed, but it makes me feel bad. Like this site isnt good enough and that its lame. Whatever. The only good thing about asking sunshinebutterfly.net to host me is that I've gotten to talk to Meggy, shes a great person and we e-mail each other now, its pretty great. I'm glad shes talking to me. Most people who I asked dont even e-mail me back saying oh, you didnt get accepted. Its weird, like if Im applying for college and they say, look here, this in 8th grade, ya know, that D you got...its not working out for us here...we need straight A's. Understandable, If I were hosting I dont think I would host my site. Look there goes my confidence. Im the most unconfident person I've known in my life. It sucks...

Anyways, Im thinking of changing the layout...anyways...bye

May 11, 2001

Sorry for not updating, but there has been alot of weirdness going on in my life. My crush is getting closer to me. Its good, but I think pretty soon if I dont tell him I'm going to explode...so pretty soon I might tell him but I dont want to ruin the friendship, so Im thinking of telling...or no...anyways, this is all I can write for now. Later...

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May 5, 2001|(Cinco de Mayo!) 9:33 am

Happy Cinco de Mayo to whoever celebrates it! Theres alot of weird things going on in my life right now. I have no clue if they are huge things or if Im just making a big deal out of nothing. First of all, something minor but something I should point out, my keyboard isn't working well, thats why sometimes I won't type right, or whatever. I hope you don't mind and end up understanding me. By the way, its broken because I spilled water on it, so now my Shift key doesn't work to I have to go to Character Map and copy and paste things like that, its a uge hassle, but I suppose I can deal with it for a bit. I know its early but, my cat woke me up because it wanted to go outside and I couldnt get back to sleep after that. I dont mind at all, last night I went to sleep at 9pm, can you believe that? In most part I believe that I went to sleep that early because I didnt do anything last night, I usually go to Lances house or we go to the movies and things like that. My mom is mad at me, and I don't blam her. I mean, I always try to get my way, I think I have some problem with admitting Im wrong when I feel so strongly about something. I guess Iam a person who knows what they believe in but dont take that the wrong way iam very open to new things and hearing peoples opinion about things. I just dont like when people get to the point where they start arguing about subjects like religion and politics and stupid things like if I say, I like purple and you say oh well purple sucks and you start yelling at me because I like purple. I mean, you can tell me you dont like purple but dont get all upset about it because I dont like the color you like. My mom just woke up and I think shes better and not as mad at me as she was yesterday. Im glad. Im pretty sure she wont let me go to the movies with Lance, Wince, and I dont know who else is going but whatever. Its ok, I wont die of not going. I was talking to my friend Nick about how much I hate jealousy. I mean, I dont hate it, I hate when people act upon it. Thats what makes me angry. I hate when people are self absorbed. I also dont get the whole “respect your elders” motto. I agry with respecting who respects you, but if an elder is being disrepectful then why respect them. I dont mean to get all in their face and yell at them. Just dont listen to them. I dont know. Anyways, that is all for now. Wait, one more thing...why do people think Im always online? Like my cousin Alex, at my house we only have one line, so we practically use the same like for internet that we do for phone calls and what not, so my cousin always calls and his messages are always like,“Damnit Noelia, I swear, you are always online...blah blah” Im just like, dude, Im not online, Im not home...geez, just because no one answers the phone doesnt mean Im online...Oh, by the way, we get the messages because we have voicemail. Also, when Im online Im usually downloading something so I'll leave my AIM window open and my MSN thing open and I wont be there for like 1 hour and he'll IM me and say, geez you are always online, or when he calls my house he'll say I've been trying to call for days...I'm just like then why dont you leave a message then, and they answer with the stupid, oh, it gave a busy signal...Im just like, no, we have voicemail, that never has busy signal...why do people have to lie, I mean, about stupid stuff like that. You didnt call, lets face it. Oh well, try again another die dont be lying about the fact that you called when you didnt and blame it on me. Then of course I get in trouble for no reason, I get my hour online taken away, its stupid, not like I do anything online anyways, Im usually writing essays and searching for things. Most of the time I'm uploading things onto my other page, oh by the way, this is the addy. But you know what, I do care, no matter how much I try to tell myself the opposite. I do care, but as long as I know what Im doing and why I do things, Im ok with that. Im ok.

May 4, 2001

Why are the guys you like so perfect?Or at least they seem that way. To me, this guys is perfect. One catch, no, hes not gay...actually, I dont know if this is worse or not...he has a girlfriend. I mean, why me?This guy is so perfect, I mean, I dont even know what I mean, I cant even get the guts to tell him I like him. Should I tell him though? I dont even know. I like him. Why cant I just say, I like you? Its that simple, Isnt it? I like you.

May 3, 2001

There are many things in life that happen for a reason. That reason might not be very known to you, but some day it will be. Some people like to go around in life and wander, searching aimlessly for things that excite them. Some people just rush through life not realizing that they are actually rushing towards death. Always tell yourself to never be in a hurry. Why the hurry? Whats it that you are hurrying to? Take each step at a time, no matter if its a good one or a bad one. You need to pace yourself. Pace. Pace.


	May 15, 2001 I’ve changed the layout for the page now. I think I like this one more than the last. Its the same person., Natalia Oreiro, its her eyes...I like it. I was planning on using one from http://www.princessmelissa.com but she hasnt gotten back to me so I can make it on time for the new one, because I wanted to make a new one, I am still doing some updates! Its cool. The web page is working out alright except the updating kind of sucks because fortunecity.com would let me upload my page for a week or so. It was becoming to get annoying.Moving on to weirder things in my life... we have had alot of Stanford 9 testing. Its kind of weird, I dont like it, but I do like it. Its odd. I mean I just think its pointless to test someone by what they have learned the year. I dont think they gave us enough time for the social science stuff. The math was WEIRD! I understood some, but I didnt remember the formula for it. Anyways, my “crush” has been getting closer to me. I dont want to mention anything because I dont know. I think im obcessing and im just plain dumb. I hate it. I hate him! No I dont...the thing is that I cant say I love him, because I dont. I like him alot. I dont know up to what point, but I do like him more than any guys I’ve ever liked so far. Wincent hurt his knuckle/finger at a volleyball game. I always massage it. I think hes getting annoyed by it now! Plus im mad at him.. I e-mailed him this past month and he hasnt responded. That jerk! No im just playing. I love messing with his hair. Its cool because when he doesnt put gel in his hair I get to mess around with it. YAY. Thats sad, thats all the highlight of my 5th period class. Its weird.I signed up for ebay this one time with my friends e-mail. I keep forgetting and I sign in with that account instead of my account. Its dumb. REMEMBER! I keep telling myself that. But I cant seem to do so.Pretty soon Iam going to have to go to my Psychology class. Iam thinking of ditching it. But I dont want to, but I do. I feel like not going but, I dont know. I have to do some other junk, and we are going o get our study guides soon. Anyways, its weird, my mom doesnt want me online. I’m grounded or something stupid like that. Anyways, Im out of here. That wraps up another life with me...waves Noelia Comments? May 13, 2001 637pm I dont know who Iam anymore. I dont know what wrong with me but everyday I feel less at peace with myself. I have various mood swings. One second I'll be all happy and the next all depressed and not knowing what to do with myself. I've been getting bored easily and tired easily. A lot of things dont seem to amuse me and Im getting alot of envy/jelousy alot. I hate it. Ita annoying. I dont know if Im getting self concious lately, but Ive been putting things aside, like this site and my other site. I dont know why. I guess I'm going through alot of emocional changes, I dont know. I'm getting kind of annoyed that no one wants to host me...well, not annoyed, but it makes me feel bad. Like this site isnt good enough and that its lame. Whatever. The only good thing about asking sunshinebutterfly.net to host me is that I've gotten to talk to Meggy, shes a great person and we e-mail each other now, its pretty great. I'm glad shes talking to me. Most people who I asked dont even e-mail me back saying oh, you didnt get accepted. Its weird, like if Im applying for college and they say, look here, this in 8th grade, ya know, that D you got...its not working out for us here...we need straight A's. Understandable, If I were hosting I dont think I would host my site. Look there goes my confidence. Im the most unconfident person I've known in my life. It sucks... Anyways, Im thinking of changing the layout...anyways...bye May 11, 2001 Sorry for not updating, but there has been alot of weirdness going on in my life. My crush is getting closer to me. Its good, but I think pretty soon if I dont tell him I'm going to explode...so pretty soon I might tell him but I dont want to ruin the friendship, so Im thinking of telling...or no...anyways, this is all I can write for now. Later... comments May 5, 2001\|(Cinco de Mayo!) 9:33 am Happy Cinco de Mayo to whoever celebrates it! Theres alot of weird things going on in my life right now. I have no clue if they are huge things or if Im just making a big deal out of nothing. First of all, something minor but something I should point out, my keyboard isn't working well, thats why sometimes I won't type right, or whatever. I hope you don't mind and end up understanding me. By the way, its broken because I spilled water on it, so now my Shift key doesn't work to I have to go to Character Map and copy and paste things like that, its a uge hassle, but I suppose I can deal with it for a bit. I know its early but, my cat woke me up because it wanted to go outside and I couldnt get back to sleep after that. I dont mind at all, last night I went to sleep at 9pm, can you believe that? In most part I believe that I went to sleep that early because I didnt do anything last night, I usually go to Lances house or we go to the movies and things like that. My mom is mad at me, and I don't blam her. I mean, I always try to get my way, I think I have some problem with admitting Im wrong when I feel so strongly about something. I guess Iam a person who knows what they believe in but dont take that the wrong way iam very open to new things and hearing peoples opinion about things. I just dont like when people get to the point where they start arguing about subjects like religion and politics and stupid things like if I say, I like purple and you say oh well purple sucks and you start yelling at me because I like purple. I mean, you can tell me you dont like purple but dont get all upset about it because I dont like the color you like. My mom just woke up and I think shes better and not as mad at me as she was yesterday. Im glad. Im pretty sure she wont let me go to the movies with Lance, Wince, and I dont know who else is going but whatever. Its ok, I wont die of not going. I was talking to my friend Nick about how much I hate jealousy. I mean, I dont hate it, I hate when people act upon it. Thats what makes me angry. I hate when people are self absorbed. I also dont get the whole “respect your elders” motto. I agry with respecting who respects you, but if an elder is being disrepectful then why respect them. I dont mean to get all in their face and yell at them. Just dont listen to them. I dont know. Anyways, that is all for now. Wait, one more thing...why do people think Im always online? Like my cousin Alex, at my house we only have one line, so we practically use the same like for internet that we do for phone calls and what not, so my cousin always calls and his messages are always like,“Damnit Noelia, I swear, you are always online...blah blah” Im just like, dude, Im not online, Im not home...geez, just because no one answers the phone doesnt mean Im online...Oh, by the way, we get the messages because we have voicemail. Also, when Im online Im usually downloading something so I'll leave my AIM window open and my MSN thing open and I wont be there for like 1 hour and he'll IM me and say, geez you are always online, or when he calls my house he'll say I've been trying to call for days...I'm just like then why dont you leave a message then, and they answer with the stupid, oh, it gave a busy signal...Im just like, no, we have voicemail, that never has busy signal...why do people have to lie, I mean, about stupid stuff like that. You didnt call, lets face it. Oh well, try again another die dont be lying about the fact that you called when you didnt and blame it on me. Then of course I get in trouble for no reason, I get my hour online taken away, its stupid, not like I do anything online anyways, Im usually writing essays and searching for things. Most of the time I'm uploading things onto my other page, oh by the way, this is the addy. But you know what, I do care, no matter how much I try to tell myself the opposite. I do care, but as long as I know what Im doing and why I do things, Im ok with that. Im ok. May 4, 2001 Why are the guys you like so perfect?Or at least they seem that way. To me, this guys is perfect. One catch, no, hes not gay...actually, I dont know if this is worse or not...he has a girlfriend. I mean, why me?This guy is so perfect, I mean, I dont even know what I mean, I cant even get the guts to tell him I like him. Should I tell him though? I dont even know. I like him. Why cant I just say, I like you? Its that simple, Isnt it? I like you. May 3, 2001 There are many things in life that happen for a reason. That reason might not be very known to you, but some day it will be. Some people like to go around in life and wander, searching aimlessly for things that excite them. Some people just rush through life not realizing that they are actually rushing towards death. Always tell yourself to never be in a hurry. Why the hurry? Whats it that you are hurrying to? Take each step at a time, no matter if its a good one or a bad one. You need to pace yourself. Pace. Pace.